wow. the blog that made me cry the other day made me cry again today. her mother passed away. she (I think her name is Toni) wrote about how she whispered in her mother's ear that it was ok to leave this earth and be free and that just made me well up with tears. I said much the same thing to my grandmother during her last days battling cancer a few years ago. it was something I never thought I'd ever have to say, to tell somebody that is was ok to die and to leave our presence... to encourage them to release their bonds to this earth. I cried when I told her that and for some reason, even though I still think it was the right thing to say, I feel guilty and shamed for it. and then I feel sad for not being there as much a few years earlier when grandpa had his bout with cancer and passed away. I guess I don't have very many regrets in general, but you can never get back time not spent with a loved one.