what the hell do you call the feeling inside me right now? all damn day yesterday. argh. it is so damn overpowering and mainly is super-ennui, yet confusingly mixed up with a skittery, shallow-breathing, slowly boiling and roiling build up of extreme pressure like a brooding ominous sky before the breaking of a storm. and no, it isn't a panic attack, I've had literally thousands of those and this feels nothing like it. it also feels like extreme over-caffeination where there is a pent up energy that cannot be released. I feel paralyzed yet like I'm about to spazz out. I feel depressed yet agitated. I need a word for it!